So here we go. I’m going to try this out once again as an exercise in discipline. I have taken my ownership of projects to unhealthy levels and I’m in need of something to break that cycle.
I’ll be with the family at meal times, but more often than I really want to, the projects suck me back in, mostly because even if I admit that there is no way I could catch up if I work 27 hour days for a month, I’ll still try. This is how I do things: if it pushes you, push back harder. If it threatens to destroy you, dig in and destroy it first.
I don’t own the company I work for. Yet, for the most part, I take the responsibility upon myself that would make an outsider believe that I do. It’s what has made me successful in the past. I own what I do. If that means working from midnight to 9pm, take a nap and do it again, that’s what I do.
I have had to admit that I can’t do it any longer. My health is taking a beating. The stress is showing itself in odd ways that baffle the experts. The medical professionals want to treat symptoms, and if I listened to them I’d be on a diet of pills that would be embarrassing.
I’m wired to do things. I no longer have a shop to play in, so I spend those hours sitting in front of a screen. I play my guitar, I write songs, but I can’t stop thinking about the work I haven’t gotten done, the deadlines that are rapidly approaching or have already gone by.
So that brings me back here. I can’t promise the writing will be any good. I don’t know if the posts will ever be seen. I won’t really know if this new form of self therapy will even be of any use. However, I need to back off or I know the stroke or heart event is going to come. Then where will all my ownership be?
So I have a new plan. I can’t slow down, so I need to reboot.
Read the Bible more. For those who don’t understand, it’s OK. Many won’t, but the fact is, God IS, and He has the words of life. I’m not afraid or embarrassed to admit I need a savior.
Date my wife. She’s awesome. I am an idiot if I don’t spend quiet time with her.
Play music. This works parts of the brain that nothing else touches. If you are an artsy person, you understand.
Build Lego things with the kids. Just ’cause!
Write. If you are following, give it a chance. I don’t have a theme yet, so it may be design, software, music, making, or just what’s on my mind.
Here we go.









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